ironic to come across in the days preceding christmas…or maybe not.
it seems that i always feel more full, more satisfied, more secure, more happy when i am content with what i have. i can look around and see that i have it all…
i possess great wealth.
i am wealthy.
sure, there are always things i would like to have, but these things would really add nothing to my life. if i were really honest with myself, none of these things matter. none.
my wealth exists not in the tangible, but in the intangible.
my family-to-be…my fiance.
my friends–both far and near.
and living simply–embraced by saint benedict–which is something i should embrace.
it beckons me to remember days past. days of living simply.
traveling [pregnant] with your betrothed. maybe just the two of you. maybe no other family around. maybe you felt all alone…maybe.
having no place to stay, no shelter.
having your firstborn in the only shelter available…and having to place him in a feeding trough. was it clean, was it sanitary, was it the only thing available?
did it even matter?
knowing there was something special about this, about him…but who would believe you? a [so-called] virgin. engaged. no mention of family or of anyone’s support, save your cousin…and some shepherds. and all this talk of angels appearing.
did others doubt you? did you doubt yourself? did you think you were going crazy? did you understand? did you even comprehend the greatness that was occurring?
did you want more?
…or were you content in your wealth?
The Birth of Jesus
4 So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. 5 He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. 6 While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, 7 and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.
The Shepherds and the Angels
8 And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. 9 An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. 12 This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”
13 Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14 “Glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”
15 When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”
16 So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. 17 When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, 18 and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19 But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. 20 The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.
and even though it seems you could have not yet known the wealth your baby came to usher in, it seems as though you were content…that somehow you knew.