contemplation resolved.

i have been contemplating the purchase of a chair that caught my eye at pottery barn a few weeks ago. and i like it. i like it a lot, actually. but i haven’t yet made the purchase. i thought i should go ahead and buy it before the tax increase on wednesday (so that leaves today or tomorrow), but i have decided against it. for me, it has been a bigger issue than simply buying a wanted–not necessarily needed–piece of furniture.

sure, i could justify it.
i don’t really have that much furniture.
it is an investment…and it is totally worth it.
i don’t ever want furniture or make big purchases like this.
i have the money.
i could just get it for my birthday.
it matches perfectly with the furniture i already have and would be a perfect addition.
…and i am sure i could go on…and on (especially since i am fond of this piece).

but there’s the rational side of me.
the rational side that looks at my money market.
the rational side that sees my paycheck.
the rational side that realizes i haven’t saved or invested money since moving to california…and can’t see myself doing so in the foreseeable future.
the rational side that realizes my car insurance will be due right after my birthday.
the rational side that realizes my rent is a lot of money.
the rational side that realizes the state of the economy, my present state, and the unknown future has to affect me sometime.
the rational side which realizes i need to make wise choices…or choices period (i simply cannot do it all).
the rational side which realizes that i have yet to see the affects of the economy (either by blessing or oblivion).
the rational side which would rather spend my extra money on a much-needed girls’ weekend.
the rational side which realizes that material possessions do not matter…and wantings will subside.
the rational side which sees that the 40 hours i currently work might possibly turn into 32…and isn’t so prepared for that.
the rational side which realizes i need nothing….

1 thought on “contemplation resolved.

  1. Mark would say in regards to your rational side of thinking…”you must have lived with Jill Baker at one time”! I like your rational thinking!!! However, if you were sitting on the floor, I would say buy the chair.

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